FINALLY!

Why the silence? Well, apart from the huge pile of Uni assignments to finish by November 8th, I went and got myself a role in a pantomime!! Just in time for November and NaNoWriMo!!! YAY!!! *shoots self*
So I have a role (well, two actually) in a pantomime that goes up on the 25th of November and runs until 5th December. Yes, the last five days of NaNoWriMo. We're rehearsing 9am - 5pm Monday to Friday. Thursday nights and Saturdays I work.
What does all of this add up to? Very little time to write!!

I had planned on keeping a daily blog this November, but I haven't posted because I had nothing to report. I didn't think anyone would enjoy my rambling excuses as to why my word count is still at 0. BUT-

I STARTED TODAY!!!

I honestly didn't think I would ever start. I was sure I would give up (again) because it just seemed to hard. But I started!
I got 2,143 hand written words done today, in just over 2 hours!!!

I don't want to give up any more. I know I'm well behind (I'm supposed to be at around 12,000 words) but It's still possible to do this!!!! And now I'm determined to do this! And, if you can't tell from all the exclamation points in this, I'm really happy about actually having words written!

Yours giddily,
Sarah.
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WORDS: 2,143
CUPS OF COFFEE CONSUMED: um.... 4?
NO. RED-BULLS: 4?
NO. 4TH WALL BREAKAGES: 1
SANITY: 43%

Planning Part 1

I love how I only use this blog to document my thoughts/emotions/process during some writing competition . I love even more how much I fail at completing said writing competitions 3 days in. And I love how I promise to keep updating on a regular basis, but after failing each writing competition, I stop because I have nothing to document. And then I attempt another one it begins again.

And, its time, yet again for this vicious cycle to start. That's right - NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) starts in 24 days, and I intend to write daily blog post during this occasion. Before it begins, though, I will be providing updates on my planning process.

But, you know. Being more exciting than that.

Planning? I have a vague plot and my main characters have names. Aaaaaannnndd...nope. That's it. *head desk*
I have a feeling November is going to be a little crazy.

So, heres the thing...

I am incurably, incredibly lazy.
I'm not sure weather or not I'm still doing JulNoWriMo or whether I should just pull out seeing as I have a total of 1300 words for the last 15 days, or whether I should just try my hardest to make up the 20-something thousand words I'm behind by.
I decided to go with a completely different story idea anyway.

Also, I need to make more videos on my YouTube channel. And more interesting ones on my collaboration channel because currently they are at level FAIL, although its not entirely my fault. Our channel appears to be falling apart.*le sigh*

And now I don't know how to finish this.




BYYYYEEEEEEEEE

Day Three....bleh

Today just needs to be over. I've changed my mind about this story so many times today its not funny. At one point I had started over with a new story and characters and was just going to wing it for the rest of the month. But a few hours later I remembered how stupid that was when I had a perfectly good plot all worked out and waiting. And of course, I remembered how good it was.
My plans to start WriDay at 4pm did not go to plan. So I will be starting at midnight - which is in 20 minutes. Okay, I will be starting after getting some sleep because my brain hurts and my emotions are all over the place. And so is this post. Why do I have a policy of not editing my posts before I upload them? Oh right, because I wanted to be able to go back and relive the emotions I was feeling at the time or some shit like that.
Nothing like running into The Ex(in my case, very literally) to screw with your mind and ruin your day, amirite?

BLEH.

Day Two: Progress! (Sort of)

Now, Sarah. After our last chat, how many words did you go away and write?
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None. That's how many words I wrote. Which bring me to a total of ZERO/FIFTY-THOUSAND.
In my defense, I have spent the last 12 hours planning.
Number of Main Characters: Three
Number of Main Characters with names: Three!
Plot: Basically there.
World Building: advancing fast.

After a short shift at work tomorrow, I will come home and be ready to attempt my first ever word sprints! As I am taking part in WriDay (checkout the WriYe forums), I will be attempting to write ten thousand words in twenty-four hours. I say attempting because I honestly have no idea how many I can mentally manage, having never done anything like it before. I am changing the rules for WriDay for myself slightly though. My twenty-four hours starts at 4pm Saturday and goes until 4pm Sunday because I need a few hours for my mind to recover before I can sleep otherwise my dreams become terrifyingly complicated and just plain trippy.

Writing starts in T-minus 18 hours!

Day One....about that....

I'm planning on starting, really I am.
Seriously.

I have felt like crap for the last 24 hours and was unable to start at midnight like I planned on doing. I was out with friends on 29th and only got 3 hours sleep (probably why I felt like crap all day) and my planning fell a little behind. I have a basic plot and two characters (only one has a name at the moment - I've been on name sites for hours trying to find one that works for my female character) but I feel like I need third character to really make it work. Or not work but.....I don't know what word I'm looking for there, but hopefully you get my meaning? I want a third character. So I'm still working him out. And then of course he needs a name. See, July 1st and already I'm becoming an inarticulate bumble.

Basically, I'm behind a day because I'm still planning.
FAIL.

P.S Writing this post on my three day old Macbook Pro! I love having my own computer and not having to share the desktop anymore!

JulNoWriMo

Ok, so I moved my blog in the anticipation it would be used more, and what do I do? I ignore it.

Moving on, it's almost July and the last month of freedom until I go back to Uni bright and early on August 2nd (Bright and early, literally - I have an 8am class on Mondays, ugh). Since completely my first semester, I have done pretty much nothing which is good and bad. Good because its relaxing and stress-free, but bad because that makes me anxious and increases my insomnia because I feel like my life is going nowhere, and its time I start actually trying to achieve things in my life, and I'm boring and useless and....bleh....

The point is, I've decided to undertake a project for the month of July this year, that will no doubt make me a frazzled, mumbling mess of craziness before its over.
I will be writing a 50 thousand word novel. In 31 days.
Before you ask - I don't know what I'm thinking.

For those not in the know, every year an event called National Novel Writing Month (or NaNoWriMo for short) takes place in November. Last year was my first year attempting this insanity, but due to the fact that I was graduating highschool in the last week of November and thus had to take scary exams that would determine my future for years to come, I only managed 5000 words before I quit.

Now, I'm bored and wanting to finally finish something I start writing, so I searched for any other events similar to NaNoWriMo that would be happening before then and came across JulNoWriMo. Pretty much the same except for the one extra day you have to reach your goal. And, of course, the lack of obstacles such as school.

I've decided to tie JulNoWriMo in with my lack of blog posts and video blogs, so for the month of July, I will be writing a blog post every week day and making weekly video blogs about the experience. My Youtube channel is here for those interested in possibly akward and insane ramblings.

Now I have to get back to world building, character notes and hopefully actually having a plot before Thursday roles around!

P.S Anyone interested in joining this nonsence that is bound to have longlasting affects of the negative kind on your sanity - enjoy

I made you a blog but I eated it...

So I recently decided to take more of a stand and more initiative when it comes to my online presence. Instead of whining about how no-one watches my videos on YouTube (despite the fact that I'm not exactly proud of them), I need to start advertising myself more (and making better videos) Instead of feeling alienated because I'm only on the outskirts of awesome web communities, I need to start participating more. Instead of not writing blog posts or tweeting because I feel self-conscious and no-one reads them/follows me, I need to keep it up while I make an effort to change that.

I had one user name for YouTube, another one for Twitter and yet another for my old blog. It seems that I feel the need to create a different "persona" each time I sign up to something new, but all that does is create massive obscurity. I want people I know from YouTube to be able to use all these sites to piece together who I was, who I am, and who I will become, just as I do with my favourite YouTube personalities.

Long story short, I'm compiling/compressing all of this and putting it all under ONE user name in an effort to allow my friends to keep up with me without having to remember a million user names.

So, like, welcome.