After spending an entire month overseas, my hometown is one of the most boring places on earth. I know its partly my fault, because I haven't caught up with friends yet or even tried to find something exciting to do outside of my house....but....I'm bored.
The kind of bored that makes me feel really restless and hyperactive but at the same time really down about myself, like I can't do anything properly. I don't know if anyone else ever feels that way when they're bored. It's not fun.
The worst par is that I have all these creative projects to work on, and I WANT to work on them, but this boredom-induced self-doubt makes it hard for me to look forward to things I was excited to get home to.
Like that novel I didn't finish writing for NaNoWriMo ( I lost that, by the way. Got 12,000 words, though, before the pantomime took over my life...wait, I mean soul) I was really excited to get back to that and am planning to finish it in time for National Novel Editing Month in March, and then turn it into a script in April for Script Frenzy.
I guess I'm just kind of stuck in a rut. I have all of this creativity bursting to get out, but because I'm not challenging myself to use it efficiently, I'm getting restless and bored, which is making me very unhappy. Maybe I just need to use it in another way. Not just writing..... Maybe I need to start making more video blogs. Or maybe I'm just dreading going back to work today.
Who even knows?
